Grief is a terrible thing. Sometimes it is just a little ache. Easy enough to face. Easy enough to deal with. Easy enough to process and move on.
Then there is the opposite kind. The kind that tears you apart and destroys your soul. The kind that leaves you bleeding on the floor, hands clenched around the gaping wound in your heart.
There are ways to survive this. Run. Run hard and fast and never let the grief catch up to you. Until you are ready. Until the agony has turned to a bearable ache. Until you can get yourself into a good place in your heart and mind. Until you can get yourself safe. Then you can stop to weep.
Oh, yeah. That running? That is the obsession of addiction. Do not judge. Addicts are not sick. They are just trying to stay alive.
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